The race for life and other smaller tidbits

2 folk i’ve known literally all my life are now married to one another. Massive congrats to Humzah and Erim, I was partially involved in introducing them so I am doubly happy for them and wish them the all the best!

But I do feel though i’m somewhat at a standstill in comparison to my peers, I’ve done alot of minor things over the course of my life but I’ve done nothing recently. With the wedding of 2 friends (although I rarely saw or spoke to them over recent years) now over, i’m left thinking: “shit, what am I doing with my life.”

An attempt to enter and run the london marathon, weight training for britains strongest man heats and a job hunt. It does seems so frivilous in comparison to my peers, who have jobs, relationships and kids. I’m still chasing my dreams rather than living reality.

I love stand up. I love preforming, its still amazes me how much I love it but, I don’t chase it nearly enough as I should. Everyone else seems to be rocketing ahead with gigs and contacts and here I hide doing next to nothing comedy wise not one proper gig this month…

I’ve justified it in my head that because i’m not working I’ll save money by not gigging. When truth in point probably is I’m afraid, i’ve been told repeatedly by my peers and my respected heros of comedy that I could live the dream of doing stand up full time, if I just apply myself over the next few years. The problem is I’m more afraid that I’ll fail. I’d rather live as long as possible with the dream that I can become a professional entertainer rather than try and fail.

Perhaps I should take a leaf out of Erim and Hamzah’s book and take a leap.

More regular updates to come. Soon. Ish. Maybe.

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